Many times in this life, i find myself losing focus. its so easy to lose focus from You. my mind often drifts from praise-worthy things to things that this world daydreams about — awful, nasty things. and it is so frustrating. I don’t want to be here, on the fence - in the middle - swaying back and forth with trying to focus on the good, holy things, and then another moment, my thoughts drifting to another awful thing. and of course, these thoughts render themselves as actions at one point or another.
and if Jesus died for all sin, and I chose to die with Him, why do I still choose death? why should I go back to the things that only bring death, when I could choose life, which brings fruit of joy and goodness, rather than confusion and anger.
"what fruit did you have then in things of which you are now ashamed? For the end of those things is death. But now, having been set free from sin, and having become slaves of God, you have your fruit to holiness, and the end, everlasting life."
since Christ has died to sin, He has overcome death. and since I have been crucified with Him, I have chosen to overcome death, too.
"for he who has died has been freed from sin. now if we died with Christ, we believe that we shall also live with Him, knowing that Christ, having been raised from the dead, dies no more. Death no longer has dominion over Him. For the death He died, He died to sin once and for all; but the life He lives, He lives to God.
Likewise, you also, reckon yourselves to be dead indeed to sin, but alive to God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Therefore, do not let sin reign in your mortal body, that you should obey it in its lusts. And do not present your members as instruments of unrighteousness to sin, but present yourselves to God as being alive from the dead, and your members as instruments of righteousness to God.
For sin shall not have dominion over you, for you are not under law, but under grace.”
to die with Him, means to have chosen to constantly be choosing freedom and life, and not to allow myself to be a slave of death.